Heavy Heart

My heart is so heavy right now.  Something I did not expect and I can't stop thinking about it.  I don't know how to explain and I surely don't know how to handle this feelings I'm going through right now.

But I know one thing though, this emotions are helping me make or choose what path to take. But I also know I should not make any decisions right now, it's not wise. Oh my gosh! It's so difficult and it hurts.